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thankful God gives peace

Okay, here’s the scoop on the past few days… my MIL’s sister, Ellen, who is mentally handicapped but was living alone, went in for gall bladder surgery a couple weeks ago.  She seemed to do fine with it, but a few days later was back at the hospital with severe abdominal pain.

Not getting my info straight from the docs, I’m not sure exactly what all happened or in what order because my in-laws are not always big on details (& it was so hectic!) but they did 5 surgeries/procedures on Ellen in 10 days… including removal of a stone blocking her bile duct, several removals of fluid from around liver & lungs, and putting in some sort of “long term” port to administer her IV meds… dunno what it’s called.  She’s smoked like a freight train for years, but recently quit with the encouragement of her boyfriend… yeah, they’re cute together.  But because of all the damage, she is just unable to overcome this infection.

However, she has quickly declined to the point that removing the fluid on her lungs is a constant need, there’s so much infection around her liver, it won’t drain, and she’s lost all bladder control.  They were able to get her into a nursing home Monday and are now dealing with trying to get all her things out of her apartment before next month’s rent comes due on the first.  *sigh*

My father-in-law’s sister, Nancy, comes down every year for a couple weeks just before Thanksgiving from Indiana on the bus, then the in-laws take her home & have Thanksgiving up there.  But with Ellen SO sick, it was going to be impossible for them to take her up there without a lot of stress, etc.   So.. Tommy and I drove Nancy home on Monday, an 8-hour round trip.

We didn’t get to stay long, but did get to visit a bit with two of Nancy’s kids, Tommy’s cousins who we hadn’t seen in many years.

The house is still in disarray, but I DO keep making small, teeny dents in it.  But that’s not gonna cut it.  Today, I plan to knock out the kitchen and living room chores so I can maybe, MAYBE, get up everything but the tree before we leave for our vacation in a couple weeks.

Then there’s all the decorating we, Melissa and I, have to get done at church, also before we leave on vacation.  *sigh*  Makes me tired thinking about it.

There’s also a bunch of crap going on at Tommy’s work.  I can’t talk about it because it’s all so political it makes me sick.  I hate rumor and innuendo and Tommy is TOTALLY  not used to dealing with that kinda thing and he’s so stressed.  He’s having to walk on eggshells, not knowing if someone is “out to get” him, literally, or who it is spreading lies about him that may threaten his job.

How DO you defend yourself against accusations of things you absolutely did not do, but then because at the time, since it wasn’t important to you to address the lie, it now looks like you DID do something?  Just because you didn’t freak out about a lie that you felt didn’t deserve a response?!!

That kind of stuff just makes me want to puke and I’m very angry that people have nothing better to do than concoct incredulous stories about my husband.  Lies that are purely to damage his character and reputation.  Very, VERY angry.

I’m requesting prayer that he will be blanketed in that peace that passes all understanding and that the truth will win out.

SooOOOooooo… that’s what’s going on with us.  I thank you in advance for praying.


Okay, so I’m not sure if this is really productive… I forget if this template shows time of post or not, but people, it’s almost 5:30a & I’ve been up since about 3a!

Tucker hadda go pee, okay?  And totally abnormal for me, I felt wide awake.  This as opposed to the usual closed-eyed stumbling I usually do when letting Tucker out at night.

So…. while waiting for him, I started cleaning our bathroom. And if you read my last personal post, you can guess it was a big disaster area.  I’ve gotten completely out of the habit of trying to at least wipe things down in there every week.  I’ll clean the toilet every day if it looks dirty, but the vanity can get totally gross and seems like I just can’t make myself clean it up!

But no more… at least not for today.  I wiped everything down with foam cleanser, detailed the faucets, scrubbed the toilet (again) including wiping the tank, behind the seat & the base, scrubbed down most of the tub.. have to get to the higher spots today sometime (please, Lord?)  All I lack (ha!) is the mirrors, the floor and the two shelves.

I am stoked!  ūüėČ  BUT… I’ve been sitting here for close to an hour now… searching in vain for a Christmas theme for here.  Where on earth ARE they?  I’ve even been looking for “premium” (read: not free) themes, but all I can find is yucky-lookin’ stuff.


Ah well… I can hear Tommy snoring through the wall, so I may end up on the couch.  I was hoping that the heavy-equipment-like snoring would end once his blood pressure got back down, but… no.  *sheesh*

Hopefully I will have more progress to report later on.


the most WONderful time of the year

An Autumn Walk

this just makes me tingle.. LOVE the colors!

I love autumn.  I love the smell, the colors, the feel of the air, the anticipation of the family getting together.. oh, wait.  Well, it’s not that I dread the family part, it’s the getting ready for all that that seems to put me in a tailspin.

Can I hear an “amen” out there?

In case you didn’t already know, I’m one of the most unorganized people when it comes to my house.  Other places?  I’m an organized dynamo, but not at home.  I think part of it’s because at home, I have to live with my decisions–what to toss, where to put the untossed, etc..  I get so overwhelmed… partially over worry that I’ll make a bad decision and partially because it seems I never have enough energy.  Unlike when I’m doing my thang elsewhere, at church for instance, I can keep up my energetic-seeming job doing for a finite period and then go home.  Whereas at home, not so much.

I know depression plays a huge part in why I’m so lax at home and why I’m so easily overwhelmed by the tasks I need to complete.  It’s a double jeopardy kinda thing… the pain keeps me from doing & the non-doing adds to the feeling of being overwhelmed which deepens the depression.  What a vicious cycle!!

My other catch-22 is that my not wanting to do or go keeps me at home, but at heart I’m a more social person.  I love getting together with friends and talking the night away, ya know?  So I discovered facebook, which most everyone knows can be a blessing and a curse!  At least it is for me.

I’ve found SO many long-lost friends and become closer friends with those I only knew in passing before.  facebook can be a wonderful way of connecting and staying connected to friends, family and loved ones.  It can also be terribly addicting!

So… I’m going to try to break this awful cycle of non-doing and my addiction to facebook all at once.  I’m not going cold turkey though.  I think that might lead to more depression.  Does that make sense?  Well, anyway, I’m going to give it a try.

Time will tell if I’m successful.  Pray for me!!!


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Look!! I LOVE this! An online audio of the King James Version! YAY! Hope you enjoy this as much as I do!

what the world needs now…

I just saw this on Fox News …

Young Men of Honor

My kids were in cub scouts for a couple of years back when my eldest was just 7 or so. Sadly, the leadership was SORELY lacking and the overall experience was not very beneficial for them.  However, the concept and ideals behind Boy Scouts is excellent for building confidence, character & citizenship.


I was just really impressed with this lady and appreciated hearing about this book.  Maybe you will too.

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Geannie's new haircut - Nov 15, 2010

Finally, something a li'l more up-to-date!

I got my hair cut last Thursday.  After several years with the long mop-looking stuff, I just sat down  & told my hair stylist to “Fix it.” She does an awesome job and so I just let her do her thang!  That is SO not like me as I usually find getting my hair cut to be traumatic, not liking the changes at all.  But this?  I love it!

Got me some of that new root lifter powder which does wonders for my floppy flat hair.

Gitter done, Kendra!!  (my stylist!) st.A.rted

After dumping my very own domain name along w/my long neglected blog, I’m thinking “Eh, a blog might be a good idea.” w/the idea that I might post about my progress (or digress, whichever the case may be!) with my diabetes and other myriad of health issues.

So…. here.  we.  go!!!



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